I am starting a series for September that are talking about depression and my experience with it. Although I thankfully feel so much better now, I wrote all these posts while dealing with the depression and living in what I called a dark hole for a long time. I am finally strong enough to share my pain and struggle with you, and I 100% feel it is necessary to share this even with being out of it because I know I am not alone. It is important that we all know that people are dealing with things we do not see. Please share these posts as you read them because as I said you never know who needs to read them. xo
I feel like in today’s world we are so quick to mask our lives. To share only the pretty and to hide what troubles us in our lives. We don’t want to admit when times are tough. We don’t want to admit when we are struggling.
I feel like I appear like I have it all together. But Inside I am struggling. I am searching for purpose, I am dealing with stresses and fighting depression that may make its appearance occasionally. That last sentence was a hard one to write. I keep that deep and hidden. Never daring to admit it because that would destroy my perfect exterior. That would mean I would have to admit it out loud and talk about it. Writing it here makes it easier but if I were to tell people in real life it might actually make me crumble in tears
I am writing this very deep and hard secret because I know I am not alone. I know that I am not the only one with the appearance of a happy healthy life. And it is not that I try to make it look perfect because I really don’t. I just don’t talk about the negative. I keep it very
positive. I am also very blessed and lucky with the life that I have. But some days I am just really hard on myself.
I share this because i want to say it is ok. I share this because we all have struggles. We all need to know that we are all working through those struggles. No matter if you keep it private or choose to share them. Do not judge others as they may be dealing with things that they
do no choose to share. And if they do share do not judge them.
Surround yourself with people that love you. That care for you and just keep pushing forward. Know that you are not alone. We are all in this together so spread joy love and happiness.